Hi,

I joind this forum in July when I'd had a suicidal episode and started experiencing depersonalisation. It's been lingering ever since, It went for a while. I went on holiday for a week 2 weeks ago and I was ok the whole time I was away. Also, if I'm really busy or in a situation I'm surrounded by people I feel close to, I seem to be ok...and it's such a relief! I was at the physio today and felt 'normal' the whole time I was there!

I've started thinking about all the reasons why I shouldn't be here (mainly disability related), then humans in general and I've started thinking it about other people when I see them! It's really disturbing me! It's not like me at all. I like people and value others but I just don't feel in control of my thoughts!!! It's so horrible!

Just wanted to share with people who understand.

I've e-mailed the counsellor I see so I should have an appointment soon. Also I'm going back to work and starting a college course next week after 2 months at home so that should help... hope!