Hi guys

When u need support where do u go? Here for all u guys to tell me i'm normal hopefully!

My aunt, who is like my second mum, has been in hospital for a week now with fluid on her lung. We found out last night that there are cancer cells in the fluid!

My mum screamedthe house down, my sis cried and i felt sick and ran round making cups of tea and giving out hugs and lots of reassurence. I was practical telling mum that the things they do now is amazing. I was so possitive! This morning i think its hitting me, i woke up with aching arm, feeling sick andtrying to keep it all together like last night.

Last night i w2as the old Nikki, i always dealt with bad news by being the rock. I was so pleased it was still in me. But now i'm scared that the anx and panic attacks will come back. I keep telling myself that it is ok and normal to feel like this after a shock.

I guess i'm asking if u would feel like this?

Thanks guys u r my rock

nikki