Can I just ask for general advice about my situation?

I've spent the last fifteen years at home bringing up a family and apart from occasional temping/voluntary jobs, that's about it. I stayed at home a lot and with my type of personality, it's no surprise that I'm so scared of committing to something long term that takes me away from my family/home. I am so scared of facing things......

I have recently accepted a job and my doctor has prescribed Propranolol, I took my first tab last night. The trouble is, the more I read up about this drug, I don't feel it is right for me. It seems to be aimed more at physical symptoms like a racing heart. I'm not aware of my heart racing/palpatations, I just feel fearful of facing anything new and run away. My anxiety has had time to build up (my fault entirely) and I can't help thinking, I don't want to fill my body up with meds that may be unnecessary.

I'm sorry for this really long message but please give me your opinion....I want to do what's best but feel so b****y confused at the mo!:(


Jem xxx