Hi everyone,

Sadly, it has been it has been quite a while since I was here.

About 8 weeks ago I came within inches of fainting in a shop in the city. Since then, I have been having heart palpitations, like its missing or skipping a beat, and feeling lightheaded but not having a fainting attack since.

I cannot stop thinking I am going to have a heart attack or that I am going to die. I can't seem to relax about it, and its becoming obvious to my family and friends that something is wrong, and I cannot speak to any of them about it.

I am overweight, and have been stressing about loosing weight, and giving up smoking too. But I have lost weight and I should be happy with it.

I have made an appointment to speak with my doctor this week, but I am very worried about confiding the above with her. I know she will have heard it before and she can actually help me, but on the other hand I am very scared that she will find something wrong with my heart and that scares me.

I am a total mess