Yesterday I found the website panicend.com and felt my self welling up as I read the words. There was nothing wrong with me-I just have a fear of my own panic and anxiety. I didn't realise until now that ever since a bad panic attack 2 years ago whilst driving when I called an ambulance and felt like I had gone insane. Ever since then I have had mild symptoms of panic every day despite making changes in my life and wondered why I was still feeling anxious everyday despite fighting off panic attacks.
I have now put it down to my fear of panic attacks-despite not having many since my first few. Since finding these words 'without the fear of them panic attacks can't exist' I have been trying to actively bring on a panic attack and 'take off the boxing gloves' as it were. I so far have found this very hard to do but I am trying. The advice Jeff gives on panicend.com is to try and make the panic worse and MEAN it (something I am struggling with)! This is due to the fact that I am still scared/fearful of all the sensations I have when I panic (especially the feeling I am going insane and going to lose control).
Has anybody else just gone into a panic attack and not feared it at all? Said sod it and realised there is infact nothing to fear but fear itself?
On the motorway today I had a mini one and at one point it was really overwhelming (band round head, depersonalisation) but after about 10 minutes it passedI think all my thoughts about panic over the last few days is bringing them on. I just don't know whether to carry on with this method or to try what I have always done-fight my anxiety. It seems the first method will work best and stop my constant worry about panic.
What are your thoughts?
Thanks
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