My boyfriend is home in January after a year and it's Christmas but I feel just lost. Run down and depressed to be frank. My HA is through the roof again,my eating problems are worse and I dunno what to do. I was at my psychologist Thursday there and he just sounded fed up with me and like asking if seeing him was beneficial and what did I see happening for the future,he just sounded like he couldn't be bothered anymore.

I don't know where to turn. I'm 24,I don't work,can't go to college because I take panic attacks and Iam just terrified of being left on my own and not being able to take care of myself.

I sound like a child. I'm just rambling. I just feel like I'm floating around and everyone else is managing and getting on with things. I don't feel anyone actually really cares about me..like REALLY cares.