Thank you Tessr .. I am feeling calmer now and am trying to be very busy (post Christmas sort-out!) Your post helped me a lot and yes, I've been looking for CBT therapists in my area (not an easy task .. I would like to see recommendations from others who'd been there. It's quite confusing as there are quite a lot of them to look at but will try to sort something) I find this forum very helpful .. and your recent post has really helped. Thank You!