Hello Everyone,
My name is alyssa and im 20 years old and I had my first panic attack about 2 months ago. I've had panic attacks before but nothing as serious as this one. I felt extremely dizzy and my vision went blurry and I collapsed. I was traumatized by the attack. And things have gotten worse since then, I have seen my doctor on multiple occations because I get a awful feeling that everything around me isnt real... like I'm in a dream. And it happens everyday which causes me to panic. It has gotten so bad that I cant go out in public because I feel like I'm dreaming and it scares me so bad!!! I've lost my job, I cant keep my doctors appointments all because the derealization/depersonilsation has taken over my mind. And my home use to be my safe haven but now I get them here too. I can't do anything without not being able to think straight... today was a little different I only had one panic attack and it only lasted a few minutes( usually i have them throughout the day for an hour or so) but even though I didnt have a panic attack I still had the "i feel like im in a dream" feeling. I just want my life back... my doctor put me on Ativan but it's not helping and i dont solely want to be dependent on benzo's to make me better, if anyone can relate to how I'm feeling please reply... I want to be normal again!!!