Hi, Just need to get this off my chest and hopefully someone can see something in this that i cannot. This year has been the worst during my 12 year battle with anxiety/panic/depression and the last 4-5 months have been very problematic and has stopped me from working and socialising.

I've tried various therapies from day 1 ( CBT, Private Psychiatrist, Hypnotherapy and lately EMDR ) so I can't say I haven't tried getting help for this.
I started off having panic attacks in the early years but for the last year or two now I just feel nervous and scared all the time.
What could I be afraid of you ask? Well in truth I'm scared something is not working correctly or as it should be in my body, don't know if its my heart/brain/automonic system or something else. I'm afraid the longer this remains the more damage is happening to my body and sooner or later I'm going to die.
Why do I think this, basically I feel the same day after day, experience the same physiological and mental symptoms time after time on a daily basis. The only difference is the intensity of them!
Dizzyness,chest pains,burning sensation in chest and back, constant stomach churning, constipation, nausea, body aches and pains, cold hands and feet, palpitations,irregular heart beat on occasion, slow heart rate one moment 50-70bpm then seconds later it shoots up unexpectedly to over 100+bpm. Fatigue, Tiredness.
That's just some of the physiological daily symptoms. My head obviously can't make sense of what the hell is going on with my body, so all it can do is just worry, be scared and panic.

I've had X-rays of stomach, oesophagus and neck ( last year) MRI of head ( 8 years ago ), CT Angiogram ( recently ) bloods taken. Only thing to show out of this was a little degenerative wear in my neck and high cholestrol in my last reading, which makes sense being diagnosed with high blood early this year.

Started taking blood pressure tablets back then and only now have I managed to find a combination that seems to keep my BP in check, but its not without some side effects, which I believe are contributing to me feeling crap.

Had to call an ambulance yesterday afternoon as I thought I was having a heart attack. My heart started to beat faster than normal 118 bpm and every so often I could feel a missed beat and a loud thud in my chest. I was getting Dizzy and felt weak, at first I just couldn't think what to do, at first i just wanted to see what would develop by standing back and allowing a little time to pass without reacting ( CBT ) but then my mind just cried out for an ambulance as it wasn't getting any better. I felt ashamed because as soon as the paramedics arrived my heart started to beat normal! ECG confirmed heart was fine...Diagnosis Anxiety attack.

I just don't know what to believe anymore!