Hiya,

I know I hold myself back too. I've felt like this for so long I don't know how to feel any different.

I don't like myself and I believe that everyone else is more important. I know that shouldn't be the case.

I feel that if I'm not anxious about something, I'll forget about something and then something bad'll happen. Or I'll be too relaxed, caught off guard and it'll be really bad. Sometimes it feels safer to be anxious.

I'm afraid I don't have any answers.