Thanks again AprilM
Just offloading on here to people who KNOW how it feels is somehow comforting
I don't want to keep on and on being miserable and crying around those I love so much ......I'm their mum and a wife and they have never seen me like this before and shouldn't have to!
I'll keep plodding on ....like you say I have been there once so in theory I should be able to get there again?!
Your support is very much appreciated xx