I think a lot of my problems are anxiety based as well. It's difficult
For example I wake up every morning in panic again.
I ruminate excessively over past mistakes and feel I've ruined my life because of some of them
I am very low in mood
I am overly nervous in certain situations
I just hate feeling like this again. I don't want to be like this forever. I just want to be able to move forward. My partner has stated he really don't care about the past. But my thinking is he gave me everything. And I took it all for granted. He wants to move on but I can't stop thinking what a terrible person I am and I keep dwelling on these moments to try and work out what lies I told and whether I told him every detail