Left my husband months ago, due to many reasons. But one of the reasons was I just couldnt take it anymore. I cant be with someone who doesnt understand my anxiety and my ocd.
I have OCD so severely, things have to be a certain way or I freak out and worry myself to the point where I cant sleep. I get terrible images in my head that he would be cheating on me with other girls, I couldnt make these thoughts go away it was crazy.
I would have OCD symptoms, where I would check his phone records non stop, to see if he would text other women, then after that check his emails, it was a vicous cycle that would just keep repeating itself over and over again. Anyway, I left him but now i find I am TERRIFIED to get into another relationship, because I know nobody will put up with my obessive cumpulsive ways. My husband was very abusive to me and it just made things a lot worse, I know I am better off with out him, because he would call me bad names, and put his hands on me, but at the same time I am so sick an tired of being single,and its hard to find someone who understands the need to do the "checks" i just dont know how to handle this :(((((