I can't thank you enough for sharing this, Sadly I didn't really read your full story just the tips, because I'm always scared about hearing others symptoms it might get to me, but this is really helpful and hopeful, I had it for 2 months and I've been having suicide thoughts because its starting to control my life, I can't go out to see my friends (because we go to the same place each and everyday, same talk, same bullshit) still I feel like I should just go and see them but out of fear I don't want to go out except if someone I trust is with me incase something happened to me, I quit my stressful unsatisfying job, What made me feel bad is, 20 years is a very long time how come you managed that, you're a hero I literally can't take one more month, and I had hopes of beating this by the end of this year maximum, do you think thats possible ?