Hi Otulissa, I just wanted to let you know that I can really relate to the thoughts you are having, I also constantly think maybe things aren't real, a really disturbing one is thinking I'm already dead and am just a spirit imagining it all. I hope someone can give you a recovery story. There are probably plenty of people who have suffered with these thoughts for as long as you have, that have then gone on to recover fully but a lot of them probably stay away from these forums once recovered, which is understandable but doesn't help us! X