Originally Posted by
KeeKee
Ok so I listened to it. Not my kind of music but the lyrics made me laugh as it is me a little (clothes you wear, window shopping haha). Especially since I've just mentioned people suggesting I wear nicer clothing.
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It's easier said that done with clothes though, I feel extremely self conscious wearing nice clothes I'm not entirely sure why. It's not TV or magazines that make me feel low, it's just the way I feel. I used to be skinny, I hated it. I used to be 'curvy', I hated it. Now I'm in between, I hate it.
Also I feel like because I'm so self conscious people aren't honest with me, so I don't know whether I suit one thing or not. Or they'll be brutally honest and tell me I dress like I think I'm 18 or something. There's no middle ground. So I have zero idea what kind of clothes suit me etc. Then there's my skin which is making me feel horrendous.
If I was happy about one thing, I'd be fine. But my favourite features from my teens are now also ruined and I like nothing about myself and am truly repulsed by the way I look.