Hi I've been having these horrible thoughts and feelings, the like swelling but nothe arouseductive feeling in my genitals and like butterflies in my stomach, I get the butterflies when I think or see kids anywhere, I don't like the feeling and would never hurt any child, I have my own son every week but I am constantly thinking of suicide because I don't want to be a pedophile, the thought of hurting a child makes me feel very sick and anxious and depressed, I think in a way it's easier if I wasn't here anymore because it's too much to be thinking about, I feel like I'm sick but no one would understand if I talk about it, any help???