Backstory: I have taken ADs before but never had these kinds of reactions to them. I have taken prozac in the past and had sucess with it but quit due to no insurance never had a problem stopping it so I knew what to expect with them..
but recently I have had the WORST experience and I think I may have messed myself up and I am scared. I went back on prozac in april due to a lot of stress that was making me anxious. I ended up having every side effect which scared me because that never happen before. after having a really bad panic attack I stopped it after 4 days. my dr then but me on celexa which made my anxiety worse so we stopped that after 4 days too... I gave myself two weeks to calm down because my anxiety was through the roof and then they gave me paxil and that was the worst experience ever. I had muscle spasms and twitches I couldn't move my mind was racing I thought I was going crazy and started thinking I had schizophrenia. I stopped it after 3 days and my dr just gave me klonopin(which I am afraid to take due to people saying its addicting) and wants to give the ADs a rest but now I feel like I have done some damage to myself. my anxiety is horrible I have intrusive thoughts and thought looping the thought of doing anything that isn't sitting at home makes me so anxious.
I want to believe its just me dealing with all I have gone through with the medications but now I think I suffered some form of brain damage or I have done something to mess myself up. I'm scared to google paxil brain damage because I know it will send me into a panic if it is true. I just want to be myself again. I can't even work or even think about moving out of my parents house because I start to panic thinking Im not mentally stable enough to live on my own anymore. Has anyone been through multiple meds and felt this way. I know I only took them for a short time so my dr said I didn't get anything but side effects but I feel like I am going crazy. any help or words of encouragement will be appreciated. this board has been my only real saving grace.