Re: Newly prescribed, too scared to take :(
I do understand your fear. You can't imagine the number of prescription pills I've thrown away and the cupboard full of OTC remedies that I 'think' I'm going to take but never have the courage to.
Why not try this route instead:
Rescue Remedy. It's natural, no side effects but does help to gently calm you.
Chamomile Tea. Same as above, lovely with a spoon of honey in.
Walking, or any other moderate exercise.
Breathing.
Research. Knowledge gives you control of your anxiety.
CBT. It's really helped me. But you have to be extremely diligent about it. Like you're studying for your law degree! Don't give up.
Anxiety is just a habit our minds have learnt. CBT helps the mind to un-learn these bad habits. But you know how long habits take to form so don't expect overnight results.
I really sympathise with how you feel at the moment. I've been there and I know it's not easy to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
If the thought of taking the tablet is making you more anxious, put it on hold for a week. Try the other route. Maybe you'll feel more courageous in a week or so. But don't be hard on yourself. You don't HAVE to take this tablet. Give yourself a break and be kind to yourself.
The problem with this condition is that nobody around you feels sorry for you. If you had two broken legs you'd get loads of sympathy and understanding. That's what you need now so give yourself some.
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General Anxiety, Health Anxiety and Panic Disorder for over 25 years. South Africa