Originally Posted by
MyNameIsTerry
Yep, you are washed out from all the anxiety. Don't read into as "maybe I really agree with my thoughts", you are simply exhausted.
Yes, I can remember someone once taking some offence to HOCD on here because obviously there is nothing wrong being gay. Of course there isn't and we shouldn't conflate homophobia with HOCD. It's much easier with the POCD or harm based themes because we know they are wrong and can more easily understand why it would be shocking due to the class with our morality. So saying to someone who is LGBT+ how your HOCD makes you feel could imply homophobia if they don't understand about OCD (perhaps in a similar way of how ignorance of POCD can mean someone thinks it's actually paedophilia) but then that's just another consideration we may have when being open about our mental health and having to ensure our audience won't react with ignorance (or an entrenched view and won't listen to reason). Besides HOCD also covers LGBT+ fearing they are turning straight or any other combination they are not so it's not as simple as a homophobia argument from someone ignorant of it can make it seem.
Maybe with one like HOCD it's roots are less in the potential something is wrong and more about not being what you want/right for you, loss of control/not being in control of your identity, the change meaning not being with your preferred sex/partner, etc?
There may be factors such as religion but these are irrespective of OCD and would only add onto their complication.
I've found my themes combine and it sounds like you have that problem with HOCD+ROCD because of your focus on your BF across them both. They differ slightly but they seem to easily have some overlap where they can both be reacting.