Originally Posted by
Carys
Hiyer,
This is why people tell you that you are nice, kind and generous, because you are - and they aren't in your mind experiencing the disconnection you feel is there. Focusing on your anxiety and depression makes the world feel a little strange for sure, as much of your emotional energy can be taken up with those aspects of living, with not much 'space' to really focus on everything else. The real you is the kind, generous and loving one, and that person is still there - once you are feeling a bit better in yourself you will start focusing outward more and those feelings will dissolve. I will add to that, that I think you most definitely ARE an empathetic and thoughtful person, as you are worried about the feelings of others and how they view you - many deeply anxious people don't get as far as thinking of those around them!
Analysing yourself is tough, and is certainly something I over-did in my YOOF and 20s, but as I got older I started to feel more secure with the person I was. I hope someone else comes along who can reassure you, as this isn't something I have felt for many decades. What is it that you think there could be that is 'really wrong' with you ?