How to get the thoughts to stop?
I noticed my lower left armpit area looked a little puffier than the right. So I went to."checking". 3 days ago. Sure enough theres a lump. I get breast cysts & I know logically it could just be one. Or a lymph node. Its round, softish, and moves. I know logically these are good signs. I just started my cycle so could be related. I'm trying to hand this concern off to my husband. Let him be in charge of monitoring it logically. That's not working though, I keep messing with the area. Its sore. I'm not helping.
Also....a good friend of mine was just diagnosed with breast cancer. I feel so selfish that I'm allowing myself to get caught up in this. She has a diagnosis & is handling it so well. Given the circumstances. And here I am, found a lump, and now spiraling. Id never say anything to her about it, I'm just trying to be supportive. 2020 has been a difficult year for HA for me. I wish God would take away my anxiety.