Re: BigOldDrives Big Old Problem List
Originally Posted by
BigOldDrive
Going to keep all my worries on this one thread.
Having a nightmare with HA tonight and feel like crying to be honest as ridiculous as that sounds.
Constantly worried everything I do or have done has caused me harm.
Really worried about the skirting boards in the landing next to my bedroom I had to paint in woodworm killer a few years back. Worried about the vapours I breathed in when doing it and they are going to cause me a horrible illness later on in life :-( I haven't researched this at all and I don't dare my mind just instantly jumps to that conclusion.
I am living a secret life of constant worry that no one knows about, but on the surface no one would ever know.
Hi BOD. (I loved Bod in the 70s)
Sorry to hear you're struggling, and if it helps, I get it.
Firstly, if you feel like crying, just go ahead and cry!
Secondly, what are you doing to address your HA? You say that nobody knows, so that implies that you are not getting any professional help?
If you are simply going to use this thread as a symptom dump - as others on here do - then you need to understand that it's not going to help you in the long-term. It will give you momentary relief at best, but reassurance seeking won't sort out your problem.
Do you know what started your fears? When did this HA start? Was there an event? Did something happen to somebody you love? Did you grow up around loved ones who were unwell?
I know people take the piss out psychiatrists when they say, 'Tell me about your childhood', but so many mental disorders have roots in childhood - mine for a start.
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