Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

[Jimbo]

How you diong today Louise? Hope things are ok for you?

Jim

[skylight2007]

Yes Jim this post is very interesting to me and it seems to put some things into perspective for me.

Thanks for the nice compliment hon, remember Jim as you heal and you begin to make more connections, you'll find a strength that you have now, only gets bigger, your whole understanding will change , this often happens very slow, and you will get your life back on track, and be the person you want to be.
Oh yeah about that test of yours, hahhaa, have replied to that and just think this a challenge of many, but just think about how you will feel when you come back here and tell us all about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The confidence is there and believe that everytime you change something, its safe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! have a great time jimbo!!! love skylight.

[Under~The~Stars]

Hey Jim,

Sorry I haven't been in touch today - had a busy day with going to the doctors and stuff It didn't go very well today unfortunately.

How are you today?

Haven't pm'd you yet, but you will already know that LOL, but I'm going to get started on it in just a minute or 2

[Jimbo]

Bah, lost my post: Internet Explorer cannot display the webpage, blah, blah

...sigh, I think this was it:

I'm ok-ish, have meds on the mind today (lol) and anxious about my trip away this weekend.

I'm in a worry, worry and more worry mood tonight for some reason. :(

My depression is talking and I wish I could just sleep through the rest of today so I don't have to deal with it.

Jim

[Jimbo]

What happened at the doctors? Hope it wasn't too bad.

Jim

[Under~The~Stars]

Hey Jim,

Are you going away this weekend?

I imagine you will be feeling really nervous about it, but try not to, just go and do it and have a great time! (easier said than done) And imagine how good you will feel after it as it will be a huge achievement. And also, the thought will be worse than the actual thing

The GP said today that she thinks I maybe have got BPD as am definitely showing a lot of the symptoms. She said to speak to my therapist about it when I see him next week, as he knows more about it than she does. So, wasn't feeling too great about that, as there was still a part of me thinking that maybe I didn't have it. However, it's looking more like I do. My GP had never heard of DBT

I pm'd you. Speak soon

[Jimbo]

Hey, thanks for the pm,

Replied to your pm before I read this,

Don't worry about your GP, mine knew nothing about DBT either, most people I've ever spoken to about it have never heard of it. Maybe your therapist can help, if not try to get referred to see a proper psychiatrist. I know that sounds a bit scary, and mine is, lol. But they can definately diagnose you and get you the proper therapy. I think there are other types of therapy for BPD not just DBT. It could just be that in my area that's what's most easily available. I'll try and find out about some and post anything I can find here.

I'm determined to go away this weekend, so I'm going to try to go for it. I know it's going to be very hard work tho. I'm trying not to think about it at the moment, I'm not going till sunday.

Feeling a bit better right now, I realised I was hungry so I made some comfort food, which is helping.

Jim

[Jimbo]

I had a quick google, ( I know!). There's lots of stuff ofc, but I still find the MIND information leaflet about BPD the most useful and trustworthy.

Here's the part about treatment:

What sort of treatment can I get?

Talking treatments
Psychotherapy is a relatively long-term talking treatment that aims to find the roots of present feelings and behaviour in your childhood. The relationship you have with the therapist is seen as an important reflection of your past and present relationships. Exploring this relationship can help to break unhelpful patterns of behaviour. The in-depth nature of psychotherapy can make it particularly appropriate for those diagnosed with BPD.
Some forms of counselling are quite similar to psychotherapy. Psychodynamic counselling, for example, places great emphasis on childhood experience. (See Further reading and Useful organisations, further down, for sources of more information.)

Cognitive behaviour therapy is a more short-term treatment that aims to tackle practical, everyday difficulties with problem-solving techniques. It works towards identifying negative thinking patterns and replacing them with more positive ones.

New therapies have been developed which combine elements of cognitive therapy and psychotherapy. These therapies, for example dialectical behaviour therapy (DBT) and cognitive analytical therapy (CAT), have been found to be particularly useful for people diagnosed with BPD.
People often have high expectations when they enter a talking treatment. It's worth bearing in mind that therapists aren't miracle-workers and that change can take time. If you find it painful to be separated from others, you might want to think about how you will manage breaks in the therapy early on. You could ask when the breaks will occur so that you can look at how you will cope beforehand. There may be times when you think your therapist is wonderful and times when you may hate him or her. It may help you to express these feelings, so that you can look at them together. If you are interested in pursuing a talking treatment, you could talk to your GP about seeing someone through the NHS, or getting treatment subsidised.

Therapeutic communities
The NHS runs some inpatient therapeutic communities that specialise in treating clients with personality disorders. (See Useful organisations, further down) In a therapeutic community, staff and residents share responsibility for tasks and decisions. If you decide to go to into a therapeutic community, you will need to be prepared to talk about your life with others before the group decides whether to give you a place. This can be hard, especially if it's the first time you have talked in front of a group in this way. Once part of the community, you would be encouraged to talk about your feelings about others' behaviour in group discussions. This may seem difficult at first but it can be very beneficial. It may give you the opportunity to see how others react to you and what you say. You can then think about what you like and what you want to change about yourself. Some, but not all communities may offer you individual therapy and, possibly, medication.

Alternative therapies
There are a whole range of alternative therapies, which some people find useful, from acupuncture to yoga. (See Further reading.)

It goes on to talk about medication etc. I would recomend having a read through the whole leaflet if you are suffering from this, or any of the symptoms, there's so much useful information in there:

http://www.mind.org.uk/Information/B...y+disorder.htm

Jim

[skylight2007]

Morning Jimbo, hope your well !! I know you've started your therapy, but I was doing some reading last night , I just thought I'd let you know that on the LINKS on the right under misc there is a website http://www.bpdworld.org its all about borderline personality disorder, I browsed through it and it looks very informative, with helplines and forum!!! I found the information very interesting hope you do too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sky

[Jimbo]

Thanks for that Sky,

I've had a quick flick through. It's a very imformative site, lots of useful stuff on there. I'd definately recomend that site to people to have a look at to better understand BPD.

I've been looking for a signature for my posts, I might steal one of their quotes.

I'd feel a bit of a deserter posting on their forums tho . Couldn't leave all the good people on NMP

I'm having a bit of a tough time at the moment, but getting through it somehow. Been self harming again and getting myself worked up into a right state. Feeling ok at the moment tho, just taking each day/hour as it comes.

Jim