Hiyer,
Its funny you've reminded me of myself as I'm quite like you nowadays with my response to things - I didn't used to be in my younger years. I now go through a day of fear, panic and terror about certain important and serious things, then process it during that terror and feel 'settled'. I don't mean that I'm happy about a situation, but it doesn't consume me and I am accepting in a way I wasn't able to many years ago. Accepting is an easier place to be, and certainly for me I can't reach that without doing through the 'being terrified', if that makes sense. Anyway, glad you are coping ok today