Re: Derealization and other symptoms that are scaring me
Originally Posted by
bewilderedkettle
I think I've been suffering with pretty bad derealization constantly for the past month of so. I've gone on pills, come off pills, and I'm currently on diazepam for help with tremors I developed. It feels like nothing is real, it feels like I'm not the person in my memories, it feels like I don't know my family. I'm really worried that I'm on my way to totally losing my mind. And, the scariest thing I've been having, is that I don't think I'm any longer afraid of death... I think. It feels like living as I am now with what might be derealization, and just being dead, aren't that different at all. I've had panic attacks in the past where I've been worried I'd stop fearing it... Now the panic isn't as strong and I'm concerned I might be on my way there. What can I do?
Mine comes and goes with anxiety. Phases can be as brief as a few minutes. My longest phases tend to go hand in hand with depression.
Derealization, like everything else in life - is transitory.
Being autistic means that I naturally feel disconnected to other people, and the world in general, but DP means that I feel disconnected from myself, and my world, and I go from feeling too much to feeling nothing at all. Then there's the looking in the mirror and not recognising myself, thing...
I've concluded that occasionally my brain needs to 'slip out of gear' maybe as some kind of coping mechanism? At the time of my worst phase of DP, my reality was killing me. My brain shut down and I think it was necessary.. a bit like when a computer has too many tabs open and it freezes up? A re-start is the only way, and in 'safe mode'.
I've come to see this as I do my panic attacks, as in, they won't harm me. It's just my body trying to help me..
What you could do is to think differently about the situation like I have?
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