I'm not sure what I'm looking for here... I guess reassurance and encouragement or thoughts from others who might have experienced this. I suffered a really bad breakdown previously with terrible anxiety and panic feelings that wouldn't go away and lead to insomnia. I made a long slow recovery to the point I felt confident to have children. I now have 2 wonderful 5 months old twins. The last few days my anxiety has resurfaced and gone through the roof to the point I can't push on. I lay down for a nap and was so full of adrenaline I couldn't sleep, and I need to grab whatever sleep I can as I'm exhausted as it is. I feel so hideous and spaced out. I'm terrified of a relapse and not being able cope looking after my girls. They are such a handful it can feel like it's all on me even though my partner is brilliant and does everything he can. I'm also worried about burdening him even more. I'm trying to think of taking a day at a time but catastrophising about what will happen if this continues. Just going to try to get through tonight and call health visitor tomorrow. This was always my worse nightmare when I decided to have kids. It feels like a selfish decision at the moment. Any advice?