I am in such a low place right now. And struggling badly. I lie awake at night and feel so much guilt about how I could have been a much better husband to her over the years , and how much I often have taken her for granted. I could not have a better more beautiful wife 😢. She’s just such a gentle, kind and beautiful woman, who has totally supported and loved me unconditionally for 21 years of marriage. Please 🙏 God may she be ok…