ever since i was diagnosed.... i haven't really felt like myself much at all. i get scared about the spasticity, about it impeding my ability to breathe. it feels like my health anxiety has come back in a big way, i have unrealistic thoughts and fears, thinking that my MS is just going to make me drop dead, or make me have an out of body experience all the time.... it's weird, i know. but my anxiety is weird. feeling the affected body parts heal is anxiety inducing for me weirdly?? i dont know, i just feel like ill never feel the same.