Re: hear no evil/speak no evil /see no evil
Hi Mirry, i agree with you on this, and you are right it all depends on what type of person you are. Like you, just reading some of the threads can make me think "oh no i couldn't cope with that" and once it is in your mind it's stuck. I don't tend to discuss my anxiety with anybody except my doctor or occasionally my husband and he changes the subject straight away, not because he is unsympathetic but because like your sister says you are feeding it, and feeding it is only going to make and it grow and get bigger. When i used to discuss it with others i found they were always watching me and asking are you allright do you want to go yet , and even if i did feel ok to start with once that little seed of doubt had been planted i would automatically start to worry and feel anxious. I only come on the site once or twice a week now and try and stick to the funnies and games but it is hard after years spent reading everything you can find in the hope of finding a cure. I also stay away from medication now as i have come to believe that it isn't a cure and it doesn't stop the way i think only masks the physical symptoms, i have been having a go at tapping after i found a clip on another site, i don't know if it truly works or is just a distraction but it has helped me. More than anything i like the fact that everyone here feels the same and that in itself is a great comfort.
I know it won't happen over night as i have been feeding my anxiety for years, but i think the time has come to put it on a strict diet and hopefully i will see it fall away bit by bit, as just like my weight i start every new year saying this year i am going to do something about it cause i have spent the whole of the previous year feeling totally crap only for the summer to roll around and i've done bugger all about it again. Really really want to start enjoying life again.
Jacq x
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