Hiya Guys,
I need to get somethings off my chest. pls bear with me!!!
Okay sometimes I really p**s myself off, I'm not taljking to my mother for various reasons and haven't done for weeks and it is possible I will never again cause a) i don't know i can cope with her
b) i am a stubborn mule!!!
My bet friend in all the world is not talking to me and I am not talking to her cause I told somenoe something she told me. I am the worst friend in the world, we ended up arguing (by bloody e-mail would you believe) and we both said things that were well out of order. I apologised 4 times and I will jot apologise again a) because she seriously overreacted (although I did not tell her that) and b I cannot keep apologising for this and c) she said some stuff that was well out of order
So in the last 2 months I have basically lost my mother and my best friend - sometimes I could slap myself really!!
Last night I had an anxiety attack (which never escalated to panic) and I was freaking about smells, gas boiler and my hair dye
Anyway I have not got a clue why I am acting like this and I seem to get really peeved off about small things, I am bringing my anxiety/panic back and I know I am doing it aaaggghhhh!!!!
Sorry had to write this
Lucky