Thanks for all the replies, they have really helped as I have felt so alone the last couple of weeks. I think that I probably have had a touch of post natal depression but my baby is now 18 months old so not sure if I go now to the docs about it they will class it as that.

I hate this time of year and the run up to the anniversary is never easy even though my son died 14 yrs ago this year, at the moment it feels like it was yesterday but I know once the day comes and goes my mood will lift.

Hugs