ok so basically after having a really bad time i ve been switched from proxtine to citalopram (even though i should be on ESCcitalopram but my doctor said she can't give me that).
i work at a school for children with speical needs and was in a class for about 8-months where i was attacked everyday by the same 3 children until they moved me back in easter. ive felt really low since moving (some people say i have aspergors becasue i don't deal with change well. i ve tried to commit suicide twice (1st time was before i was before i was on the citalopram the second time was last week after my 1st week on citalopram).
i m back at work in the morning only in a diffirent class but i am finding it really hard. the worse times of the day for more are getting up in the morning and going to sleep. it takes me ages to get to sleep and without a sleeping tablet i can't sleep and then waking up is a nightmare. i wake up at 4 and just lie there hopeing time will stand still and i will not have to go to work.
i ve been told that the reason why i m finding it hard to gel with this new class is becasue i m being over proctected becasue i ve been attacked so much and this should get better. but i m starting to hate my job which i don't want to do becasue i do enjoy it