hi poppy, today i have not felt the need to think of the what ifsInstead i thouught of my grandma,and how she would be there to greet me if i were to drop dead.The look on her face as she would say what the hell were you thinking when you dyed your hair pink back in 2000.Then i thought oh my god im gonna get a right ear bashing,but wouldnt it be nice to see lost loved ones again.Id finally get to hug my mum,to say i love you.I prefer these thoughts to the its over its final