I am doing well since the termination now, as in I accept it and I don't have nightmares anymore etc.... but I am left with a phobia of bleeding down below It sounds stupid I know
It didn't start straight after the op it was after my first period in January. It was VERY heavy, I was gushing everytime I moved around, even when sitting I could feel it. It was very dark and heavy for about 3 days, then it tailed off. Last month wasn't as heavy but I still had gushing everytime I moved around for 3 days.
I saw my GP and had swabs and bloods done to rule out any infection, just to reassure me as they were sure it was too late to get an infection. The results were all clear so theys adi the heavy bleeding is just a period and not related to PID or a womb infection.
It has been 14 weeks now since the termination and I am now left with this phobia of bleeding down there. I dread my period, I am due any day and I feel sick at the thought of it I have always had heavy periods, but never worried or felt anxious about it, I just got on with it, I used to go running during AF. Now I make no plans, don't like to leave the house and hate being alone during this time. It's that huge gushing sensation I had during my first period, it felt like I was haemoraging and it scared me alot.
I saw my GP and he reassured me it would fade in time, and that it is just my brain reacting to the termination, the bleeding reminds me of it, and I will get over this fear. I told him even between periods I sometimes check I am not bleeding, just incase I get bleeding between periods. I don't check constantly or anything but it has worried me alot I guess.
I am not anxious all the time or anything like that, I guess having helicobacter and still having alot of stomach trouble is not helping, so at times I feel quite low about all of that as I just want to feel normal and be able to eat without any pain, that has been ongoing for 13 weeks now.
I know I have had a bad run recently and things can only get better but I want this phobia of bleeding to go and I am not sure how to tackle it. Any advice?