Hi!
Wow I had never heard of this phobia before (im new on here)
Firstly, No you are not a pathetic excuse for a woman, I would think many people would be scared of this. Im guessing you have a loving partner or husband with you that will be with you step by step of the way, if not you have family etc. You will never be alone in this, you will always be with someone. I am only 16 but I would think that you wouldn't be fearing needles at this time as you wouldn't really be thinking about that. Lets face it, you know it will be painful, but think how many other woman have done this before and all they can see is the happy side of it and im sure that will be the case for you too!
Try and look at is this way, when you do have your beautiful child, your fear will most likely be cured.
I was reading in a magazine somewhere how to deal with a fear or a habit.
The first step was to write down the pros and cons. What is going to be bad coming from this? What will be good? I can think of many good things
Then the next step was to sit in a quiet place and close your eyes, focus on your breathing and then visualize the end result, see yourself, in your mind, with that beautiful baby girl or baby boy that you have dreamed of. See how happy you and your partner are, see your family doting over him/her, see the happiness this little bundle of joy has brought you.
Now come back... how good was that place that you saw in your mind? really good, right?
Try not to be scared, I know it is hard for you, but it will be so fantastic in the end. My mum always tells me that it was all worth it, and she would do it all again for me, the pain you get from childbirth is over-ruled by the amount of happiness and love that her children bring her, and i think that's what many mothers would say.
Look at the bright side, this is really what we are on earth for. You are a strong woman and can do this without fear. Say that to yourself everyday in the mirror, and soon you will start
believing it and
being it.
"I am a strong woman and I can do this!" say it now!!
all the best and good luck.
xoxoxox