im confused and dont know what to do..
my marriage isnt good and i been seen a counsellor, im horrible person to be with and i get angry and swear at my wife and very easily angered by my son who wont do as he is told.... she threaten to leave me and take the kids, but my mind doesnt seem to care as is there a wall in the way stop stop me caring.....
i hate myself and even considered harming myself as im not very nice person at times and feel i should punish my self for hurting everyone around me esp my family, i got low few months ago and i found summit blunt and scored bad dad along the inside of my arms...........
is 40mg daily dose hiding me away from caring and actually being human as nothing seems to make me wanna be a better person.............
im not violent and dont harm my family, but because i shout alot my son is being looked after by the care teams at his school so he can speak to someone.....but i thing they made it bigger than it was and make me out to be a bas*ard......
i only want to be a good husband, father and happy..........
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....just too many dam things going on in my head to deal with.....................................