Hi
I went to the doctors 3 weeks ago about how i was feeling i've suffered 8yrs and never told anyone. I wrote her a letter about how i felt and what feelings i get. She read it then asked me to take anti d's whilst she refered me to get help.
I got the letter from the mental hospital 2weeks ago and felt ok about it but didnt like the sound of being assessed now its only 3days to go and i just want to phone up and cancel as M my best mate says its the way out of this i no she's right but i feel scared and part of me would perfer to stay like this than go to the hospital on wednesday.
I dont like being like this but at the same time i dont like the feelings i get when i have to go somewhere i dont want to go.
I just wanna run away from it all. I feel out of my safe zone.
My mind is doing over time im having panic attacks all day which are wearing me out. Then at nite i cannt sleep cos of wednesday running through my mind.
Thank you for taking the time to read this
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xxx