Hi Soler,
So sorry to hear how you ve been suffering with this. I totally understand what you re going through, my son was diagnosed with OCD at age 16 (he s now 25), he had many intrusive thoughts which were extremely upsetting for him at the beginning. The thing with OCD is that when you deal with one thought, another completely different one usually replaces it. CBT has taught him how to deal with it and how to break the cycle. He also takes Flouoxetine daily which is an anti depressant, he now manages the OCD and it no longer rules his life. He is anxious by nature as I am, thats why Im on this site! I have my own anxiety issues lol!! I was worried sick just like your mum, but please take heart and know that you can overcome this. Please tell your doc, he ll be very sympathetic, you dont even have to be specific about your thoughts if you dont wish to. Just tell him they re very distressing.
Wishing you well!
Jillybean.