Wow what a journey it's been since i first posted here a couple of months ago.
Been on Cit since June now taking 30mgs and finally it seems to be doing it's job. Over the months I've been to hell and back, marriage broken down, been of work nearly 4 months now and the biggest blip I nearly killed myself!! but that was the turning point for me.
Waking up in AAU with needles and wires coming from everywhere and my family sitting there with worried faces was horrendous and it brought it home to me just how low I had got.
It's been a tough few months learning to live my life with some resemblance of normality but I think I'm finally getting there. I feel so much more like me again; I'm looking at going back to work in a few weeks though got to admit that scares the life out of me but I will overcome it.
I've started a new fresh life on my own and am starting to enjoy my own company and see there is so much more to life than just being someones other half, the top of the hill has been reached now I hope and things can only get better.
I can honestly say without the support of my doctor, councillor, my family and friends oh and of course the Cit i would not be here right now to post this so to anyone new to this med hang on in there it will get better you will come through.
Bright Blessings xx