not silly at all,,im 48 and my mums been very ill and at 83 i know shes not gonna be about for ever,,but the thought of losing her is more than i can bear,,like you while shes near its like having a comfort blanket and i can cope,,my daughters the same with me,,she like me is agoraphobic and yet if im with her shes ok,,we chat all the time and rely on each other totally,,and shes 31 lol,,if you have a safe person its hard when they are out of sight,,it does get easier ,,i hated it when hubby first started going out,,but now i love my days in on my own,,todays going to be hard i wont lie ,,tomorrow will get easier for you though