I realise this is a bit whiney but I need to get it out and this is the only place I can. I thought I was doing so well with recovery I listened to the counsellors advice on getting out more but iv been like this for so iv drifted apart from a lot of my old friends and now no one ever invites me anywhere anymore. Iv tried To arrange things but people are usually busy. Then my brother calls me lazy and worthless which makes me Feel even worse about myself.
Yesterday I had a uni interview and I got so nervous that I messed the whole thong up. Anxiety has ruined my life and even when I make the effort to get better the people around me just make me Feel bad again. I used to be confident and full of energy now I have no friends and zero self confidence. I don't see anything ever getting better, I keep having urges to end it because I don't see me ever being that person again :(