This anxiety has taken all my friends from me, nobody wants to see me because they have to come to me and all we can do is sit in.
I have nobody, I've never felt so alone.
I make plans with my friends but when it comes to it they let me down and I understand how boring it must be for them and how exciting seeing other people instead is but I don't think they understand just how lonely I am.
I know it's probably not worth seeing them when they can't really spare the time for me but without them I literally have nobody.
I can't make new friends because I don't go anywhere =( I haven't moved from my house/block for over a year.
I hate it.
I'm 22, it's so embarassing to be me, I don't tell anybody what I suffer from so I have friends from years ago offering to take me out for my birthday and I wish I could say YES! I really want to go, I really want friends but they don't know what I have, they think I'm just avoiding them or something or making excuses or I have other plans. I could never bring myself to tell them, i've told friends in the past and now they're bored of me, they're sick of me.
I'm frustrated because i'm sat here knowing this is the best my saturday is going to get, I feel ill and I'm going to be here, alone, today, tomorrow and for however long, what is the point in it? All I can see is sadness down the line and I Want to enjoy myself so much =((( x