Going back into the stress (new job)
Hi all,
Just been given a great oppurtunity to take on a high position in the company I am with. It's really good news and its come from nowhere, my only worry is the stress I went through in my last management job will return. I ended up packin in that job for that reason (as well as SAD) and took a lower paid job with company I am with, with less responsibility, this has been ok but felt like I was underacheiving, when this chance came I thought at last I am capable of better things. I just need to concentrate on my stress and what triggers it and put it in its place.
I spoke with a colleague today and he put a dampener on the position, outlining it is a lonely job and I need to be more assertive, I know he means well but I've took a back step for the last two years to blend into the background and concentrate on my life outside of work, so assertiveness has not been my main goal so I have been pretty quiet, which some people at work think I am being funny so don't make any effort to talk. I think I am just guarded by keeping people at a distance and collecting my salary. Less involvement = less hassle.
I am going to be really involved in this position and I am leapfrogging quite alot of people to get there, I just see this as a compliment, I have good training and good qualities which I have played down to stepout of the lime light, why should I let my family go without to give me an easy life.
A happy lion will return, when I am happy I feel I can tackle anything and nobody bothers me. I am still on Citalopram as I have for the last 4 years, and I will tackle withdrawal at a later date.
Well onwards and upwards, I have another little boy on the way in August so life is looking up.
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