Originally Posted by
lanerbanana
thank you <3
unfortunately, ive tried to talk to my mother about my anxiety and depression-but she believes there's nothing wrong with me. she says that i "think i have depression" and keeps telling me that my life is blessed and ive had so many good things happen to me throughout
i know that. the problem is, those things whenever they pop into my brain, they DONT make me happy. it's really hard for me to be happy. that's the issue.
ill be looking into it more in the coming days. i just woke up about an hour ago, nothing much to report other than it kinda feels like its a little bit hard to breathe, little bit of coughing here and there, and there's a small, weird pain in the side of my head. little worried about that but trying not to think about it.
oh sorry i forgot: i cant really seem to pinpoint exactly where and when i started having HA, but i maybe can guess bc of these couple factors
- dont get sick very often so i always panic and think the absolute worst whenever i do have something even a little off with me
- grandmother passed away suddenly bc complications of diabetes (i dont know the true cause)
- mom got sick with pneumonia and panicked a bunch so in turn I also panicked as well
and maybe a couple other things, but i cant pinpoint them off the top of my head right now. doesnt help that i also have autism and tend to obsess over things, bad or good