Re: Refusing to get out of bed today! My furlough on life....
Originally Posted by
Phoenixess
However I’ve just had enough! I’ve had enough! I can’t fight today I can’t see any positive things any more I just 100% want to curl up and hide. It’s my birthday a month today and I don’t want it. I don’t want anything I’m miserable I hate myself I hate my panic disorder I hate panic attacks it’s so humiliating and difficult. I’ve taken all the medication done everything everyone said and I am left like WTF am I even hanging around for. I’m a waste of space and energy and it’s just bloody pointless.
Brilliant well done life!
I generally advocate positivity but there is something to be said for occasionally giving positivity the V's and hiding under the duvet. It clears the air. When I'm on my own I go through as many swear words as have been invented, and with a few of my own. My neighbour must think I have Tourette's! I've had many days like these over the last 10 years, but the storm always passes. The clouds always roll away and many more metaphors which amount to the same thing - which is that these epically bad periods are transitory.
Once you've had a good moan, and it's out of your system, look for the lights in your life - no matter how small and seemingly insignificant. It all makes a difference.
Overweight, ill with anxiety? Learn to love yourself now while you feel shit. Don't wait for weight loss or better health or not having anxiety in order to be find happiness in life.
I've made that, 'I'll be happy when... mistake over and over again.
Feel shit and do it anyway cocker. X
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