I just got diagnosed with having OCD, specifically Pure O as it is referred to. I have battled with anxiety since I was a little girl. It all started when a pervert attempted to kidnap me and since then its been anxiety and panic. I never noticed I had OCD but now that I am having the chance to reflect I can see it much more clearly. I have those obsessional thoughts, like am I a serial killer or what if I am a pervert? I used to always check under every bed and look in every closet to make sure no one was there although I knew logically that no one could fit under most of the beds in the house. I even used to look in the cupboards and oven, which is nuts I know but even though I knew it was an impossibility, I would still HAVE to look.
Lately I have been under an unbelievable amount of stress and the obsessive thoughts are just killing me. Right now I am in the "Am I schizophrenic?" state of mind. I have researched everything about it and even though I have no symptoms other than obsessive thoughts I can't seem to convince myself that I am not. I am scared to do anything that I have read schizophrenics do. I don't want to watch the television because some get messages through there. Of course this has never happened but I keep thinking "what if." Every symptom I read about I get obsessed over. I am trying really hard not to look it up on the net anymore but it is SOOOOO hard. I know that I am not delusional because if i was, I wouldn't be such a nervous wreck but still, well I'm sure you all know the 411 on that.
Sorry for the long post. Just had a bad day and needed to vent a little.