hey guys, and a very good morning , afternoon , and evening to all depending on where you are in the world right now.
just wanna start off by saying a big thank you to everyone out there who has made me feel so welcome. you the greatest guys.
for the last number of months my anx has been targeted in on certain ars of my body, ( my left side,) as some of you will have read from previous posts,
i just cant seem to get it into my head that this is all just bad muscle tension, i mean is it possible for tension to last for such a long period of time, right now i can feel my neck, tensing up an da pain going down the back of my arm, my breast is hard as well as my shoulder blade, and it feels like there is pressure being applied to theleft side of my neck,
i cant go back to the do.c as she says there is nothing wrong and wont send me to have it checked out at the hospital.
If only this would go away then i would be able to relax and feel secure enough about leaving the house on my own,
its been nearly 12 months now and for the most of it i have been house bound, im either on the pc, or sitting in my bros room playing the xbox ( which isnt good )
i have no friends who come and see me, or call, and i have been taken outta my job and back to my mums now for teh last yr as i couldnt cope, so now i have no job, no money , and im sleeping on the floor in my mums house, i feel like a caged animal today, im not depressed just really really really fed up with it all, i just want a break, know what i mean? but this dam bloody tension is doing my head in ( if thats what it is).
im sorry to ramble on, there are those of you out there who really need comfort more than me. i just dont know what to think or believe .
xx
steve( oh and its ment to be airwolf not airowlf, my typo)