Hi
just wondering if anyone else has had to cope with this? I am constantly on edge about my children choking. It started when I was weaning my daughter onto solids and had lots of anxiety when feeding her. It gradually went away but recently has come back.
Whenever one of my kids coughs I get a sudden rush of panic. If they are eating I sit there on edge waiting for one of them to start choking. I know its getting worse because the other day my partner had a coughing fit whilst eating (somthing had gone down the wrong way) and I had a panic attack. I used to only have them at home, I dont work and am a stay at home mum but last week I was out shopping( usually my favourite form of therapy) when my daughter coughed whilst having a sweet and I panicked. Everything was ok and I tried to carry on as normal buit felt reallly on edge and in the end I gave up and came home.
I worry if one of them comes down with any kind of illness, no matter how small. I worry in case its seriuos, what would I do? If they were choking to death would I be able to do something? Would I just panic? Would I watch my child die in front of me?
I know its natural for a mother to worry about her kids but I find it hard to get through the day, it is very draining thinking that your child could die at any moment. I just wish I could relax. I know the chances of something happening are small but with me I always think in terms of 'it could happen...'
It doesnt help that i'm worried about my health and me dying. i had a bad virus a few months ago and it made my throat very irritated. For two months after everytime I ate I felt like something was stuck in my throat and my neck glands felt so tender. I had endless trips to the doctor/blood tests. They told me it was an infection and it is perfectly normal for the throat to take so long to heal if it has been irritated. They assured me it was not cancer and that all my symptoms together do not add up to cancer.
However now its back and my throat is sore again and when I eat it feels as though something is stuck. Deep down I know its because I have caught another cold but as always my mind is saying what if its more serious?
anyway, does anyone else get so anxious over others health? It is really disrupting my daily life to the point now where I dont want to be on my own and certainly dont want to do things like shopping with my daughter on my own in case something happens.
Lucy x
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