Hi everybody this is my first post so a bit scary but hope there's someone out there that can help!!
Last week the scariest thing happened to me and its really affected me badly. All day i was feeling really strange and i just couldnt shake this feeling of panic. By the evening it had turned into a full scale panic attack. i'd never had one before and it was horrible. I dont know why but i was just convinced that i was going to murder my parents or kill myself. They were trying to convince me they were just thoughts and i wouldnt do it but i was so scared that in the end they called the doctor out. i was calmed down with valium but the whole thing terrified me.
The next day me and my mum went to the doctors who perscribed anti depressants and has referred me to see someone. Im still waiting for the appointment but in the meantime i'm still plagued with these thoughts.
Before last week the only hint of these thoughts i've ever had was maybe if i read about murders or phycos and and i think to myself "god how awful if i turned out like that". but since my panic attack i cant get thoughts of murder and going insane out of my head. Im panicing all the time about the thought of carrying out these awful thoughts but also when a thought does pop into my head its as if those sort of acts are normal. im just traumatised. please help!!